Goodbye To You

Today is the end of our 30 Day Beach Body Challenge. It makes me kind of sad, but really happy and excited at that same time. Sad because the Beach Body membership is pretty cool for when you get bored of the same video over and over. Happy and excited because I definitely purchased the right program for me and this just solidified that I am ready for this next chapter in my fitness and weight loss journey.

The real downside to today (in my eyes anyways lol) is the weigh in. Measurements, weights and after pictures. If youve been reading my blog you know how much I LOVE this part (NOT).

I weighed in and truthfully I am extremely discouraged. I haven’t lost a single pound in 3 weeks. Like literally have not fluctuated at all. I just want to scream WHAT THE FUCK! People say it’s not about the weight your loosing its about the change in your body but my clothes aren’t fitting any better either. The only positive difference I have noticed has been my energy level and mood. These changes are amazing but not all that I was looking for. I was not asking for much. I would have been happy with 1 or 2 pounds but nothing? Gawd! Ok I’m ranting now…Oops.

Measurements and pictures will come some time this week. When I’ve picked myself back up from this mild depression that I’ve found myself in and kicked my ass back into gear.

I am by no means giving up. I can picture the life that I want and I’m going to work until I get it. Sometimes you just need to have a little pity party along the way.

Current weight: 224

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It’s A New Dawn, It’s A New Day, It’s A New Life…and I’m Feeling Good!

I cannot believe how great I feel today. I have energy and motivation to get my work done. I feel like I could go for a run right now and it is only 9 in the morning. This is unheard of for me, ESPECIALLY on a Monday morning.

This weekend was busy and full of running around to get ready for the baby showers and parties that are coming up in the next few weeks. I still managed to get some workouts done, eat healthy, and stay within, or even under, my calorie goals. SWEET! I still allow myself to eat regularly (yes I had leftover Pizza for breakfast one day and I had sausages for dinner one day) I just make sure to be completely honest with myself when putting these foods into my calorie counter. Its working pretty well so far ūüôā

On Saturday I made a stupid move. I ate right before my workout. This was a HUGE mistake. We decided to do T25 Ab Intervals that night as well. I only got about 10 minutes into it and had to stop. My stomach was killing me, I felt weak, shaky, and very nauseous. Those supermans were my undoing; laying on my stomach, on the floor, lifting my arms and legs up. Well, needless to say, I threw up about 20 minutes later. ūüė¶ Blech. Lesson learned? Never again will I eat right before a workout.

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Sunday’s Sweaty Selfie ‚̧

Tonight (Sunday) we did Cardio. I DID NOT eat for about two hours before and I was good to go. I made it through the entire workout and felt amazing afterwards. I still have trouble doing all of those squats though. My legs just want to give out! One of my new goals is to make it through an entire T25 Cardio or Speed workout without having to take any amount of breaks while doing squats! I think at the rate I am going that this will be a very manageable goal.

Our 30 day Beach Body Challenge is just about up. My next challenge will begin soon; T25 Focus 10 week program! I am so glad that I started this journey. Starting really is the hardest part! Now I need it. I am craving it! Its crazy really, but I know that this is still just the beginning to the rest of my life.

It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, it’s a new life, and I’m FEELING GOOD!

Trying Something New (Warning, this is a long post)

I have¬†worked out hard 4 out of 5 days so far this week. That is pretty great if I do say so myself. This week got off to a rocky start. Sunday (as you know) was my migraine day but I worked out anyways. Monday was an emotional roller coaster of a day with my cousin going into labour 9 weeks early, my bestie having some horrible personal troubles and me only loosing 1 pound in the past week. So my friend and I had a night of girl talk instead of working out. But the rest of the week is going by smashingly. ūüôā

This week I got back into food prep mode because honestly I had been slacking major in this department for a week or so. One of my best friends, who I actually met through work and have had the pleasure of working with for the past almost 3 years, was quitting. So for the last week or so we’ve been going out for lunch, A LOT! I am going to miss his crazy-ness but I digress. I got back on track over the weekend and am feeling good about it.

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Tuesday sweaty selfie after T25 ab intervals.

Tuesday we decided to switch it up from our usual routine of Cardio or Speed 1.0 and we went with one of our other favourites, T25 Ab Intervals. If this is a problem area for you, you really need to try this workout. It works all the muscles in your abdomin and you can really feel it! I can still feel it 2 days later when I have trouble sitting up in my bed haha.

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Being Goofy after 10 minute trainer and another 15 minutes of Turbo Fire and intervals.

Wednesday we really changed it up and went with a totally different workout program.  It was called 10 minute trainer. The moves were not so difficult that you could not follow along but it was difficult in the fact that you were out of breath within two minutes and your muscles were really tired out. I liked this workout for the fact that it only took 10 minutes. Quick and to the point. Overall though, I definately missed my Shawn T time. I found that I caught my breath, and my heart rate was right back to normal, within a few minutes. I didnt feel like I was finished so, I tried out Turbo Fire for a few minutes but ended up just running through a few drills from my T25 Cardio/Speed videos that I remembered.

The thing that I love¬†about T25 anything is…its only 25 minutes! You sweat your ass off and tire out whatever group¬†of muscles that you are working on, but it only lasts for 25 minutes. After that 25 minutes, you can STILL feel your body working. Your heart beat is elevated and muscles are tired for so much longer after your workout which means that you are still burning calories when your finished (AKA, flopped on the couch, breathing heavy but watching your favourite TV show).

What did I learn from this trial and error? I learned that I definately purchased the right program for me. T25 is my kind of workout and I cannot wait until this 30 day challenge is finished so that I can officially start the T25 10 week program!

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Wednesday Night Workouts. 10 Minute Trainer. The little man was helping us.

This is still only the beginning.

Never Giving Up

Wow. The last few days have been brutal. I have had no energy, no will power, no motivation at all.

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Being silly and sweaty after T25 Cardio on Thursday night
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Stacey being silly and sweaty after T 25 Cardio on Thursday night.

We worked out really hard Thursday and Friday. We decided to do T25 Speed 1.0 and Cardio. They are still really difficult for us, but we have definitely noticed improvements. We are able to work harder during the workouts and sweat a lot more. We still plan to work through the rest of the T25 Alpha videos but we will be focusing on the Speed and Cardio videos. We like these two videos the most.

My goal for focusing on Speed and Cardio is to make it through the entire video without taking a break. Currently I am huffing and puffing 5 minutes in. I usually make it about 10 minutes before I have to grab a sip of water or stand for a minute and take some deep breaths. So I want to eventually make it the entire video without MAXING OUT as they call it in Shaun T land :). Stacey’s goal is to make it the entire video without having to modify. I think that is an amazing goal! I wont get there myself with my arthritis (jumping hurts like a B*TCH) but she will definitely be able to accomplish this goal.


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SWEATY SEFLIE! Gave 110% during T25 Speed 1.0 Friday night.
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Sweaty Selfie! Literally dripping sweat from working it hard on T25 Speed 1.0 Friday night.

This past weekend I hadn’t felt myself and it was really starting to put a damper on things. I had a bad migraine (possibly due to no caffeine or the fact that my period may want to rear its ugly head) and a horrible stomach ache. So I had no motivation. The motivation that I did have, was spent on housework and meal prep for the week. I really didn’t feel like working out Sunday¬†but I knew that I needed to. I suppose doing a half assed workout is better than sitting on said ass doing nothing right?

We did end up doing Speed 1.0 Sunday night after all. I know that I didn’t put my all¬†into it like I have been but I think that’s¬†OK. I still pushed play right? I worked out anyways.¬†Sometimes that is all we can ask of ourselves.

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T25 Speed 1.0. Worked on our speed and stability Sunday night.

Putting on the Pounds

When I first began my fitness journey I told myself that I would be completely honest with myself and this blog. I told you that I was going to be completely honest as well. So I am here to tell you that I have gained 5 pounds back of my 11 pound weight loss.

This weight gain made me a little bit upset at first. How could I have gained 5 pounds in 1 week? Ive worked so hard, pushed myself during my work outs, even doing some workouts by myself. But, in all reality, it is my own fault. It was my birthday weekend. I let myself sit around and do nothing, eat junk, over indulge in drinks, cake, food in general, so I am paying the price.

Do I feel discouraged¬†about gaining 5 pounds? Sure. Some of the weight is from over indulging, but some is from building muscle (or at least that’s what Im telling myself lol). Do I feel guilty that I had a lazy and crazy weekend? Absolutely not. I had so much fun with my family and my girlfriends last weekend that those 5 pounds were worth it. I need to be able to live my life and have fun doing it.

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Cant breathe after our T25 Cardio workout.

That being said, I am going to work my ass off this week!

We started back to our workouts full force last night, beginning with T25 Cardio. I dont know why but this cardio video is my absolute favourite of all the videos so far (and let me tell you, I hate cardio).

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Still managed to get a smile on our faces after working it hard.

We were on the ball last night. We worked it hard. We were breathing heavy (panthing even) to the point where we could barely speak, sweat was dripping, and our hearts were pounding. There were times that our muscles pretty much gave up (those damn squats Im tellin ya!) and Im not going to lie it was hard as hell, but there was not one moment where either of us stopped moving. I had determination to get this workout done and to work as hard as I could through the entire thing and I did.  I am so proud of how hard we worked, how hard I worked.

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Beat after T25 Cardio and lifting.

I was so determined yesterday that I was going to work out hard, that after the 25 minute Cardio I got out my weights and started lifting. I did a bunch of different excersizes to work out my arms as I have barely any muscle in that area. This wasnt necissarily an excersize for weight loss, but I also want to build muscle on this fitness journey and I feel that so far the videos have not helped me in the area of my upper body. Now I will tell you, I CANNOT lift very much. I had two weights weighing 3lbs each (yes only 3lbs each) and I could barely get through 3 reps of 10. Who am I kidding I could barely get through 1 rep of 10! But I lifted for another 25 minutes. I completed 3 reps of 10 for EACH muscle group in my arms/back/shoulders, which I thought was pretty good for the first time lifting :).

I cant wait to do this all again tonight. Maybe some Ab Intervals? Maybe some full body? We will see!

Cardio Killer and Birthday Celebrations :)

Yesterday was my birthday. I turned 27 :o.

Festivities began on Friday when the guys (and Janice) from work brought me out for a drink. When I say a drink, I mean literally 1 drink (I had to drive home afterwards you know). But really, I love these guys. They are what helps make my work day bearable.¬†One of the guys who no longer works with us even came out to wish me a Happy Birthday. This is the only part of my job that I absolutely love, the people that I work with.¬†I don’t think I would be able to get through an entire week of work without them, or I would go crazy.

I knew I had to work out Friday because the rest of the weekend was going to be filled with rest days and over indulging. Once I got home, I was antsy. I knew that feeling. Its the feeling that wpid-20150410_225059.jpgI’d been waiting for, for the past few weeks. The feeling of needing to move my body. The need to sweat and feel the exhaustion in my muscles. The feeling and need to work out. FINALLY!

As soon as my daughter was in bed I went to work. I was still sore from the other workouts that had been done throughout the week so anything with planks or generally getting on the floor were out of the question. I went with the T25 Cardio. I chose the T25 Cardio because it pushes you to work harder, it makes you sweat like crazy and I just love this workout.

I did mostly all modified but I was able to do SOME of the moves un-modified, which is a change from last week. I sweat my butt off and when I was finished, I felt amazing.

Saturday and Sunday were our ‘rest’ days, although I did not get a whole lot of rest they were still pretty great.. Saturday consisted of baking cupcakes for nephew’s 1st birthday party, going to get my nails done with my daughter,¬†getting ready and dancing the night away with some of the most amazing ladies in my life ‚̧ Sunday consisted of decorating said cupcakes for nephews birthday and setting up/going to nephew’s birthday party!! YAY!

All in all, it was a great weekend and I got a great workout in there too.

My Birthday Buddy <3
My Birthday Buddy ‚̧
Happy Birthday To Me :D
Happy Birthday To Me ūüėÄ

This Week Has Been Wonderful <3

This past week has been a pretty great one for me.

First of all, I lost 5 pounds this past week, giving me a total of 11 pounds lost! This brings me to my new weight of 219 pounds.I must say that this feels pretty great. It is the first time I have been under 220 since my daughter was born 7.5 years ago. This just adds fuel to the fire of my Weight Loss Journey.

Second of all, I have officially shared my blog with 2 close friends. Up until this point I wanted to build the content of my blog before sharing with anyone. Who wants to read a blog with 1 post right? But I do want to be held accountable for my actions and my weight loss so I decided to share. I don’t plan on officially sharing it with anyone else just yet, but one day I hope to share it with a lot of people who need the inspiration to start their own Journey.

Third (last but not least) of all, I got my very first follower on my blog. Actually 2 of them! 2 followers for which I do not know personally! He he that sounds silly, but to me it is exciting ūüôā

All-in-all this week has been a pretty great one that will only be getting better as over the weekend I will be celebrating my 27th birthday! YAY me! Parties, cakes and a few too many drinks will be had by all. Although, I think the most fun will be celebrating my nephews 1st birthday on Sunday. We are Birthday Buddies and I am so happy to share my birthday with such an amazing little man ‚̧ Best Birthday present ever!

Week 2 – The Week of Sickies and Self Motivation

Now for the workout section and stuff about what I am actually doing to get fit.

This past weekend was Easter. This past weekend was the weekend I thought I was going to work out a ton, and get some great grocery shopping done etc etc. The reality of this past weekend was …I was sick as a dog. That is usually how it goes. You get a moment to rest and your immune system says, “well you were too busy to be sick before, now is as good a time as any”.

So out of my 1 last working day and 4 days off of work, I did 1 official work out that lasted only about 20 minutes (of the 35 it was supposed to be) before I was hacking up one, if not both, of my lungs. I also took 1, very slow paced, walk to sell girl guide cookies with my daughter. The rest of the weekend I ate homemade chicken noodle soup and Easter dinner (and lets be honest I ate a ton of Easter Chocolate as well) and laid on the couch in front of the TV.

My first workout on Monday was really tough. It was the first time I worked out by myself since starting this challenge, and I could feel myself falling back into that old pattern of depending on someone else. That old pattern of, Im not going to work out tonight because Im still sick, because Im tired, because I have no one here to motivate me. Instead of working out I almost crawled into my bed and went to sleep, but I decided to be my own motivation. I got off my ass, set up my workout area and chose to better myself instead of making excuses. It was hard, and no I did not make it all the way through the entire workout, but I still got up and got moving. I felt better (if not sorer) afterwards and I am proud of myself for that.

Over the last few days, especially after our weigh in on Monday, we have been working hard using my Focus T25 program. Speed 1.0 and Ab Intervals are our workouts of choice so far.

Here are some of the sweaty selfies that were taken in the last few days:

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Sweaty Selfie-Monday night, tried out PiYo by my self ūüôā
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Sweaty Selfie-Tuesday after T25 Speed 1.0
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Sweaty Selfie- Tuesday after T25 Speed 1.0
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Sweaty Selfie-Wednesday after T25 Ab intervals

I hope this post inspires you to be your own motivation. Its hard, but you can do it.

The Goals For My Future

I was asked a few simple questions today. A few simple questions that have made me realize that I have been lying to myself for a really long time. I was asked: What made you decide to loose weight now? Whats different from the last time you tried to loose weight? What are your goals and when do you think you will achieve them?

2 years ago, I got it into my head that I was going to loose 100 pounds in a year. Easy enough right? I was working out, mainly speed walking at the gym, when I started getting horrible pain in my feet. I later found out that I have arthritis, in my feet and knee, at the ripe old age of 25 (at the time). I also got a really horrible tissue infection in my right leg that left me down for the count for about 6 weeks. These were all really good excuses as to why I quit.

In all reality, I was scared shit-less. Scared of the pain in my feet and scared of infection returning to my leg. I never told anyone that until a few months ago. I think actually telling someone my fear is what really helped me decide that it was time to try again. Hearing myself say out loud “I am afraid” brought me to reality.

So I begin again.

My weight loss Journey.

Why now?

I am sick and tired of being fat! Being a BBW is fine, and I do love myself. I am beautiful, intelligent, strong willed and I have a killer personality but being fat sucks! I cannot do everything that I want to do in life, while I am in this body.

How long will it take?

This time around I put no time limit on my journey. It will take as long as I need it to take. Maybe three years, maybe it will never be over, and that’s OK.

My Goals?

I believe my goals will be ever changing. That is why my journey may never be over. But for now my goals are as follows:

1) Lead a healthy lifestyle.

This includes eating healthier (not any specific diet, I am still going to live my life, but just healthier choices), and getting active. This will help me, and hopefully set a better example for my daughter.

2) Loose 20 pounds.

This is my first actual weight loss goal. Once I reach it I will up the anti but for now…I am half way there!

3) Be under 200 pounds.

My goal weight is 150 pounds but I am not focusing on that just yet. Getting under 200 pounds will be a huge accomplishment as I have not been that weight since I was about 17 years old.

4) Be able to shop in ANY store I want.

This is actually a huge one for me. I have been shopping in plus size stores since I was 17, and paying the plus size price tag as well. I love that there are stores targeted specifically to plus size woman. There are even stores targeted to YOUNG plus size woman. But you know what? Im sick of being confined to a few stores that I can buy clothing at.

I am a young 20 something. I want to be able to walk into any store, try something on, and have it fit! I want to be able to be on trend and be able to go shopping where all of my girlfriends shop instead of dragging them to Addition-elle or Maurice or Penningtons for myself. I want to be able to buy what I want, from wherever I want.

5) Stop saying no to active play with my daughter.

I do this. I know every parent doeswpid-20150226_174802.jpg it at some point or another but I do it so often that my daughter no longer wants to do anything active, even if I suggest it. I feel like a failure in this aspect but that is going to change. We will get outside and do things together and I will no longer say no, or take no for an answer.

Why is this time different than the last?

I am sick of making up excuses as to why I ‘cant’ excersize. I am an able bodied person. It might take me double the time to do the same workout as someone half my size, I may have to modifty every single move for my arthritis and just because I am not up to that specific skill set or speed yet, but thats OK! Thats OK because Im not going to sit on my ass and watch my life go by anymore. I am going to get up and live it.

My Motivation

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Tight and Sore

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Sweaty Selfie #3 after stretching/yoga

Yesterday was day three of my fitness journey and the 3rd day of working out. I am having difficulty describing the degree of soreness that I was feeling. Have you ever seen a very old man hobbling around with a cane or walker? Have you ever noticed how slowly he has to choose his steps or how his legs are a bit bowed? That was me all day. Getting up from a chair or sitting down in a chair was almost excruciating; and climbing or walking down stairs without your legs giving out, IMPOSSIBLE.

Since we were so sore, we decided to go a the T25 Stretch video as our workout for the night and I am so glad that we did. It was 25 minutes of intense stretches for your whole body. There were quick moving, fluid stretches. There were static poses that you had to hold. There were a few times that I could not hold those poses and pretty much fell over because I have no balance what so ever lol.

We were still sweating by the end, showing that we were actually getting a good workout, and our muscles felt pretty great by the end. Our muscles did not feel 100% but they were noticeably looser and did not hurt as much.

I recommend, after doing the stretches to get rid of the tension in your muscles, to take a bath. Epson salt with peppermint essential oils is amazing and helps to relax ailing muscles. I felt amazing after my bath and stretches and went straight to bed.


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Sweaty Selfie #4 after T25 Speed 1.0

T25 Speed 1.0 kicked our butts tonight! My goodness what a workout!

It was crazy. I had to do the modifiers throughout the entire workout but I was still sweating my butt off even halfway through. Actually, this is the most we have sweat for any of the workouts so far.

Truthfully, I didn’t think that I would make it through this workout. I had¬†to stop a few times to catch my breath and grab a quick sip of water. It really keeps you moving through the entire workout. The thing is, I DID make it.¬† And you know what? I am so proud of myself!

It took me about 20 minutes, even after a cool down and cold shower, to officially catch my breath, but afterwards I felt pretty amazing. I cannot wait to do again!