I started in a Zumba class this week. Its taken a lot for me to feel comfortable participating in any kind of excersize class. I dont want people to see me and all of my jiggly bits, jumping, bouncing OR shaking (and trust me we shook ALOT). Honestly, I was not comfortable at first BUT I pushed through that social anxiety and went…by myself.
Going by myself is huge. I have always suffered from social anxiety and to think about just a few years ago when I could not go anywhere by myself. I always had to have someone come with me almost everywhere or I would make up excuses as to why I couldnt go or do something. Whether I was with a group of friends or not I would have all of these thoughts running through my head about how others perceived me, judged me. I wasnt pretty enough, or thin enough, I was way to fat, or at least fatter than ALL of my friends, I wouldnt know what to say or be able to come up with any witty comebacks etc.
…to now…going to a fricken zumba class by myself? Im pretty impressed with me right now 😀
Im not saying that I did not have any of those thoughts. At times I thought, omg everyone just saw me trip on my own foot, or I eww Im disgusting by how much Im sweating. But guess what I saw when I looked around? I saw other people tripping…and sweating..and still having fun! So guess what I did? I let myself have some damn fun too!
It was a great class! And yes, everyone was DRENCHED by the middle. And I actually did not feel as judged as I thought I would. I liked it so much that I signed up for the rest of the 10 classes in advance. :O I know, I cant believe it either haha.
So go get out there and let yourself have some fun and get some excersize while your at it!
2 thoughts on “Zumba! With A Hint of Anxiety.”
hey you. so proud! I feel like I know you through this. I think anything we are or once were insecure, or even ashamed about gives us anxiety. But like you said, when we push through, it feels awesome. You are awesome, and beautiful. Keep going. I can read the smile of confidence and pride in your blogs and see it in your picture!
Aww thank you so much. Its words like these, of encouragement and inspiration, that really help us to keep going. Thanks for commenting, it means alot. ❤