Headed In The Right Direction

This past week has been amazing in terms of motivation and actual workouts. My meal planning was not as spot on as it was last week, but that doesn’t mean that I didn’t prep at all. I’m waiting for SOMEONE to make cabbage soup with my weekend leftovers soo…I prepped for 2 days instead of the whole week lol

My meal plan for this week includes:

Breakfast 310 calories, 42 carbs – toast with cottage cheese and mini-medley tomatoes

Lunch415 calories, 60 carbs – brown rice, glazed carrots, and my turkey and spinach meat balls OR cabbage soup (once its made and IF there are left overs)

Snacks 90 calories, 4 carbs – mini cucumbers and humus

Monday, as always, was Zumba night. I wasnt feeling great, but I participated. It was a half-assed participation but I made it through the entire hour so I call that a success haha.

My sister and I had talked about wanting to go back to the gym. We also agreed how difficult it was to go to the gym without some kind of partner to encourage us. I need that in my life. I can almost guarantee that I will not go to the gym unless I am going with someone.

So guess what I did on Wednesday AND Thursday?! I went to the GYM :O. It was awful and wonderful all at the same time.

Wednesday was leg day and cardio. I choose the bike almost every time, mostly because of the arthritis in my feet. My legs hurt the next day and by day 2 I couldn’t walk to save my life! But honestly, I welcomed the pain. Yes I bitched about it to anyone who would listen, but I loved every second of it. It meant that I was building muscle and what does muscle do? Muscle helps burn fat 🙂

Thursday I actually pushed my sister to go back to the gym. I was definitely feeling the motivation to get moving. We decided to do arms and abs and then I went for a walk on the treadmill to try and stretch out my sore legs. I would not recommend this as I wanted to keel over the next day lol I should have just done some really good stretches through my thighs instead.

I find the gym or going for a really good walk (it would be run if I was allowed to run) really clears your head. For me this is huge. I over think everything. I re-play conversations or interactions with people over and over again in my head until I am crazily analyzing everything that happened that day or the day before. So I need the gym, the physical exertion, to clear my mind. To think only of what move to do next, what muscle group to work, to push harder…that was bliss to me this week.

I have Zumba again tonight and plan on heading back to the gym at least 2 nights this week. I can’t believe I am saying this but…I am STOKED haha

“Weight loss is like driving: If you ever veer off the the road, just make a U-turn and head back in the right direction.”

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Me and the SEESTER showing off our lack of guns (or at least my lack of guns) at the gym lol
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I Am BEAUTIFUL and I KNOW It

8e60d5c61cce20c7a93746a71d3e1329I am writing this post because today a friend of mine told me that she hated her body. She felt invisible in her life because of her size. That she didn’t love the ‘body positivity’ movement that is happening right now because she didn’t feel like she had anything to feel positive about. She is just so unhappy. I hope she doesn’t mind that I am writing a blog about this, but I feel like I need to. You are not alone in this girlfriend!

For me, I have always been the ‘Big’ girl in the group. I know what it feels like to be invisible, to not love my body or myself.  I suffered from depression for most of my teens into my early to mid twenties. I had no self-confidence, low self-esteem and an awful idea of what my body ‘should’ look like.

When I heard my friend say these things, I was stunned. Honestly, I cried. My heart broke. I realized that the reason I was so upset was because I knew EXACTLY how she felt. I hate to say that I used to feel the exact same as my friend and I hate to hear another woman feeling that way. While I do not love the way my body looks all the time (most of the time) I do love myself no matter what size I am.ellenquote

I am beautiful and I know it. I never used to think that. I used to think that I was ugly. But now, I KNOW that I am beautiful.  When I say “I am beautiful” I’m not ONLY talking about my body, or my face, or my hair (although, on most days I do love those things about myself now). I’m talking about the spunk and positivity that I have.  The love that I have, and show, for other people and for myself. True beauty is about having confidence in your self no matter what. To be comfortable with your self and accepting of your self.

I talk about beauty because I felt invisible for so long and then once I had my daughter I stopped giving a shit about if people ‘saw’ me or not. I started doing things for myself; I started dressing the way I wanted to dress and I accepted my body as is. With all of its rolls and stretch marks and ‘jiggly bits’. Accepting the fact that I was fat, and yes I knew I still had to lose weight, but accepting the fact that I was fat and couldn’t change it right this second made me a more confident woman. When I stopped giving a shit, and started taking care of myself, making time for myself (mind body and soul) I became a much happier person. And you know what happened after I did that? People saw me…and they didn’t just see the physical part of me, but they saw the PERSON, the beautiful WOMAN that I am. And I was ok with that.

I know that I am here, talking about my weight LOSS journey. And I know that it sounds hypocritical to say that I love myself or my body but I want to change it. But I also know that if I didn’t choose to live in the light every day, no matter what SIZE I am, that I would not be the person that I am today.

I still have my doubts and negative thoughts about myself and my body (you can read that in past blog posts lol) and I don’t think that will ever fully go away. Everyone has those doubts and thoughts once in a while. I just choose to live happily and love myself despite that. I hope that you (my friend, and anyone else reading this) can start to see the light in your life and not just the dark.

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Meal Prep Recipe- Egg Muffins

I promised you a recipe and here is it.

My Egg Muffins. In the mornings I need something that is full of protein and is going to keep me full for at least most of the morning. I was also sick of eating hard-boiled eggs every day at work. So I made these yummy egg muffins with zucchini and mushrooms (you can change these ingredients to whatever you like). They are very flavourful and my 7-year-old daughter actually asked me to make a second batch because she wanted to take some for her breakfast at daycare (I just couldn’t believe that she liked something with zucchini in it hehe).

To keep the calories down I used half regular eggs and half egg whites (8 large eggs and 8 egg whites) to make 12 egg muffins. They work out to 48 calories each, so I eat two for breakfast plus 1/2 cup of cottage cheese and I am full for the morning.

Without any further ado:

Egg Muffins Recipe

Ingredients:

  • 8 large eggs
  • 8 egg whites
  • 1/2 tsp greek seasoning
  • 1 small zucchini diced
  • 1 cup mushrooms diced
  • salt and pepper to taste

Directions:

  • Pre-heat over to 350 F
  • Beat eggs and egg whites with spices, set aside
  • Spray muffin tins so the egg does not stick (sometimes it sticks anyways)
  • Divide zucchini and mushrooms equally among muffin tins
  • Pour beaten egg mixture equally into muffin tins so that they are filled pretty much to the top
  • Bake egg muffins in 350 F oven for about 15 minutes or until toothpick inserted in middle comes out clean

I let them cool and then bag them into individual serving sizes (2 in a plastic baggy or container). Then they are ready to grab and go when I make my lunch at night, or first thing in the morning. I re-heated them for about 30 seconds and they were perfect!

Have a great one!

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Filling muffin cups with zuchini and mushrooms
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Egg mixture
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In the oven! (Sorry for my messy oven lol)
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Finished product with a hungry audience.

Meal Prepping Like A Boss

My post last week spoke to the fact that I needed to get back on track in terms of meal prepping. Sunday is my meal prep day and meal prep is exactly what I did! It took me a few hours. It has never taken me that long to prep all my food for the week. However, those 5 hours also included cooking our family dinner and pumpkin muffins (as per my little punk’s request to bake with her momma).

I think because it has been a little while since I did a full week’s meal prep that it is just going to take me a minute to get back into the swing of things. I say this because honestly, spending my ENTIRE Sunday cooking is NOT my idea of fun. It is also not realistic for most people, including myself. I am a single mom. I have my daughter 100% of the time. I also work full time, 6 days a week. Sunday is my only FULL day off and I will not spend it meal prepping my life away lol. I will get it down to 2-3 hours, even if it kills me to do so.

Anyways! My meal plan for the week is as follows:

Breakfast: 207 calories, 5 carbs

  • Egg Muffins with zuchinni and mushrooms (I will post my recipe later on, as these are REALLY good)
  • ½ cup of cottage cheese
  • COFFEE….lots and lots of coffee J

Lunch: 243 calories, 27 carbs

  • Cauliflower fried ‘rice’ with about ¼ cup of regular minute rice (added to bring my carb count up)
  • Cilantro-Lime chicken breast

Dinner:

This is always the toughest because I do not cook dinner, myself, through the week. I have the privilege of my mom cooking dinner for the family during the week (I cook all meals on the weekends) and I do not DARE tell her what to cook lol So this is where my caloric and carbohydrate intake fluctuates the most. I will keep in mind my serving sizes and I ALWAYS have veggies on hand to help fill me up in the instance that she has cooked something that doesn’t fit into my idea of what a balanced meal should be. Wish me luck on this one.

Snacks: 259 calories, 38 carbs (I probably won’t eat all of these snacks on a normal day, these are just the ones that I have prepared for this week. I will probably eat 2 of 3 each day)

  • Cucumbers with skinny cow cheese (if you haven’t tried this…do it now)
  • Apple with peanut butter
  • Watermelon and a few grapes

*Keep in mind that, as a diabetic, I am SUPPOSED to eat 40-60 carbs at each meal. This never was a problem before but I didn’t seem to take this into consideration this week and barely made anything with carbohydrates in it! Today my blood sugar is on the higher side, so low carb wont hurt me. But on a day that my blood sugar is running on the lower side I might be in a bit more trouble. The only thing is that if you add carbs, you add calories. 😦

So this week’s meal prep was a success. Here is to hoping that next week goes a little more smoothly in terms of how much time it actually takes me to prep 🙂

Have a good one!

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Someone else wanted my Egg Muffins too ❤ lol

Getting My Groove Back

quote-fitness-motivationThis blog is supposed to be real, and full of what I am actually doing with my fitness journey, so that is exactly what I am doing today. Filling you in on my current ‘Journey’ or motivation plateau as I am calling it right now.

These past few weeks have been so hard in terms of motivation and pre planning of my meals. Meal planning, for me, is key! If I don’t prep my meals on the weekends, I eat like crap all week. I don’t make my lunch, therefore I eat out. I don’t bring my breakfast and snacks, therefore I grab a breakfast sandwich with my coffee on the way to work. And working out? A real, muscle-building, cardio fuelled, calorie burning work out? There is not a chance in hell.

These past few weeks have been a bust. It kills me to write this but I have gained back 2 pounds of the 13 pounds that I lost so far this year. I know some people may say well 2 pounds isn’t SO bad. But you know what? I worked my ass off to lose those 2 pounds. It took me weeks to lose those 2 pounds in the first place and I’ve let them come back. I am pissed at myself.

I can feel the difference in my body that ‘JUST’ 2 pounds creates. The unease within myself knowing that they are there. I know this is in my head but with those 2 pounds comes an anxiety that I can feel like no other. ‘What have I done!’ ‘All that work for nothing’ ‘You will never lose the weight that you wanted to lose’.02b6db8964fbd93b4b34cfdd9442aa34

However, this current week has been a little bit different. This week I met up with a friend who I hadn’t seen in a long time. This friend has been through a lot of stuff in his life but he is getting his shit together. In his blog the other day he said:

‘The beauty of life is that it is what we make it. We can choose to stand still, live in negativity…Or we can scrape our sorry asses off the pity train and live! I choose to live!’

I realized, when I read this, that this is EXACTLY what I need to do. I am scraping my sorry ass off the pity train and getting my shit together lol.

Now I may not be ready to hit the gym with him anytime soon BUT I am taking  steps (albeit small) to get that motivation back that I had, not too long ago. Going for walks, Zumba, thinking of putting those DREADED T25 videos back on, or God forbid get on a bicycle haha (that is a funny sight to see). I felt that negative, anxiety filled, energy pulling in a different direction this week. I’ve pinned some new recipes for my weekend meal prep. I’m planning my grocery list as we speak and I will work out MORE than my once a week Zumba class.

This is me, being accountable for my choices and my life. This is me, hitting a small fork in the road. And this is me, getting my groove back.

Have you ever hit a motivation plateau? What did you do to get out of it?

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Small Achievements and ZUMBA-Week 3

Monday night was my third Zumba class and Ive got to say, Im really loving it. I feel like I am starting to get SOME of the moves down pat (Im not sure if it actually looks like it or not, but in my head Im a sexy Zumba dancer haha). Zumba makes you feel sexy…or at least it makes ME feel sexy, dancing and moving to the rythm.

8ba80149f3c8b6f4fc5777d004d68138What doesnt make me feel sexy while doing Zumba? The amount of sweat that pours off of my body (and everyone else’s). Its disgusting! BUT, the way that I like to look at it is…When I Sweat its just my fat crying…that helps me a little lol

The amount of steps that you do during Zumba is insane. Different studies suggest that you should hit 10,000 steps every day to live a healthy life. Having a sedintary job like I do, it is nearly impossible to get 10,000 steps in 1 day. I will hit 5,000 steps on a good day during the week. That is with going for a walk at night or getting a little excersize in mid day, but 10,000 steps? There is no fricken way lol

But I Finally did it! I reached that 10,000 step goal and I actually did it TWICE this week! Amazing!

The first time was apple picking on Saturday with my daughter. We did a 3 acre corn maze and picked a few bags of apples at an orchard near by our house. The second time was monday night with my Zumba class. I wasnt quite at the goal of 10,000 steps (I had about 500 left) before I went to bed, so I made sure to dance around until I hit it. My screen even lit up with fireworks! I thought it was pretty cool.

Achieving those small goals are what get me through my day, or week, or month. You need those small accomplishments to help build up to the larger goals that take so much longer to accomplish.

This is the fitbit view of my day on Monday (although my floors climbed count is incorrect. It is literally impossible for me to go the whole day without climbing at least 8 sets of stairs)

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This is impact that my Zumba workout had on my day (that is HALF of the steps that I took the entire day, all in 1 hour)

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This is my cute badge that I earned (and shared on Facebook) for hitting 10,000 steps in 1 day! YAY ME!

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