I’m Back Baby!

I’m back!

I cannot believe that it has been 3 months since my last ‘REAL’ post. Life got busy, I got lazy, and everything was kind of set on Auto-Pilot for a while. You know the whole…get up and get ready for work, get the kid up and ready for daycare, go to work, come home, dinner, make lunches, do laundry, study for school, go to bed and start the whole thing over again tomorrow thing? Ya that has been my life for the past while.

This post is actually really difficult for me to write. My first post in what seems like forever but I need to be honest and I need to be real. That’s what my blog has been about all along.

So here is my truth: I haven’t been going to the gym. I have barely made it to Zumba. I basically haven’t done ANY workouts in what seems like forever. My meal prep has been lacking as well. My go to these days are yogurt with protein powder and fruit for breakfast, a frozen Steamer or Lean Cuisine for lunch, some cucumbers with cheese for snack and whatever is ready for dinner when I get home from work. Not awful but not the best.

I saw a nutritionist who instructed me to lose all carb in my diet. I know that this is what most people do to lose weight but as a Type 1 Diabetic I do not feel comfortable doing that. My dietitian has ALWAYS made me think that carb is an important part of a Type 1 Diabetic diet. The nutritionist also asked me to double my water consumption (I am now drinking approximately 16 cups of water a day…thats like 3 liters of water LOL) so you know what else I’ve been doing a lot of haha.

My weight hasn’t fluctuated MUCH. I am definitely up a few pounds but fitting into smaller sizes WOOHOO. Before I saw the nutritionist I had actually gone down 1 full dress size. Which just seems insane and impossible to me. This just goes to show you that the number on the scale is not always what it seems to be. I am currently hitting the scale around 225 to 230 pounds (I know the number scares me too) So I must have gained some muscle mass while I WAS working out…now the trick is not to lose it!

I have a new fitness DVD sitting at home just waiting to be opened and put into the DVD player. I just need to find that drive and motivation that I had when I first started this process.

Even though nothing seems to help me lose weight and nothing seems to be going the way it should I am trying to keep going. It is very frustrating and disheartening but I need to push forward or I will NEVER reach my goals. And that is NOT an option.

Here is to pushing forward and getting back that motivation to move my ass! ❤

 

Meal Prep Monday-February 1st

Whats up peeps? Its been a while. Let me give you a little catch-me-up before I get down to business.

January has been CRAY CRAY! Getting my daughter back to school after Christmas holiday has been horrific (Read all about our ADHD Life here ). The plus side: the screaming and out-right refusal has stopped but the crying about not feeling well and not want to go to daycare or school continues. My grandma was in and out of hospital, which meant sleep overs on her couch while she was recovering. Work, work, and more work. We have started horseback riding at a new farm (my daughter not me lol) once a week. I am going to Zumba twice a week now instead of just once. I also started taking an online class from the local college to possibly get a NEW career. It’s one class but it takes up about 7-8 hours a week of my nightly routine. So to say that I have been busy, and STRESSED is an understatement.

I am finding it increasingly difficult to find time to, or even want to, work out. I can’t seem to get the motivation to do any exercise at home and I’m getting to the point that I don’t even want to go to ZUMBA! Say it isn’t so! My muscles don’t hurt anymore after my class, just my joints…constantly! Which I am sure has something to do with my arthritis and the weather this time of year. I have even quit going to the gym (for now). I don’t know if it’s just me being totally worn out or if it’s the season or a bit of both but I am hoping that I can my shit together really soon.

I have been sticking to the diet given to me by my dietician but I have GAINED 4 pounds in the last month. Maybe 4 pounds doesn’t sound like that much but when I think about how long it took me to lose those 4 pounds (almost a year) it is absolutely terrifying! I think this has also contributed to my non-motivational funk. I feel like I worked so hard to lose that weight and then POOF there is in, right back on.

I am frustrated and unnerved but I am TRYING not to let that get me down 100%. The one thing that I have not been slacking on is my tracking and my meal prep. I am switching up my meal plan AGAIN. Less carb, more veg and protein. More veg is the downfall. Its not that I don’t like veggies, its just that I would rather have fruit and fruit has more sugar. And picking better-for-me items to snack on when I am hungry in between meals.  I need to find the balance and I need to find it NOW!

My NEW meal plan for the following week includes the following:

Breakfast: 240 calories, 54 carbs, 5 grams of protein

  • Quaker Oats-Maple Oatmeal
  • 1 apple

Lunch: 340 calories, 30 carbs, 18 grams of protein

  • 2 home-made chicken wraps with garlic sauce and hummus (pictured below)
  • 1 cup cucumber slices

Snacks:

  • 1 Oikos Greek Yogurt (Raspberry Truffle to curb the sweet cravings after lunch)
  • Dehydrated zuchinni chips (home-made!)
  • 1 Quaker Granola Bar

Dinner: Under 500 calories

  • I now have a TON of veggies on hand that I can pop in the microwave or oven when I get home to go with whatever my wonderful mother has cooked us for dinner. Brussel sprouts, cauliflower, broccoli, zucchini etc.
    • I am doing this to include MORE veggies and to make sure that I fill up  more on veggies and less on carbs.

The last change that I made to this week’s meal plan was to incorporate MORE water. I drink plenty of water but had definately been slipping up on this aspect for the past month or so. So I am re-committing myself to drinking more water. My beautiful tumbler that I got for Christmas is sitting on my desk right now, filled to the brim! (Also shown in the pictures below)

These are the pics of my very YUMMY Chicken Wraps with Garlic Sauce and Hummus. If your interested they are super easy to make: 2 small tortillas, 1/2 tsp lebanese garlic spread, 1 tsp hummus, 1/4 cup grilled skinless boneless chicken breast, cucumber slices and romaine lettuce. All under 400 calories.

What are you meal prepping this week? What does your meal plan look like on any given day or week?

 

Pushing Through

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Sweaty selfie after Zumba class 😀

This past week has been full of motivation and pushing through.

If you read my recipe post then you know that my weight is down another 2 pounds, which is crazy in the 2 weeks that I’ve been giving it my all. Then I made the mistake of weighing myself again last night.  I gained back those 2 pounds plus 1. I don’t know why I felt the need to get on the scale. What is our obsession? I know that the 3 pound weight gain is incorrect. I had JUST eaten, I had just finished Zumba an hour before and I am about to start my period (sorry for the over share). This is not the day that I usually weigh myself and I vow not to weigh myself mid-week ever again lol

Getting back on topic though. Zumba is still going great, I am still loving every sweaty second of it! It blows my mind to see how many steps you take and how many calories you actually burn in that hour. It literally accounts for over half my steps on that day and it seems to go by so quickly.

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sweaty selfie at the gym

The gym is going well, but I am still finding it really difficult to get there. Not even to physically get there (I live 2 minutes away), but to mentally prepare myself to work out in the way that you work out at a gym. I find myself standing there, staring at all the machines not knowing which ones to do in what order. I also find that when I go to the gym by myself, I DO NOT push hard enough. Example: I went to the gym with my sister and we killed it. I felt that wonderfully awful pain in my muscles for days- that only a good workout can give you. The next week, I went to the gym by myself and thought I killed it! But during the next few days I waited for that delicious muscle pain and felt NOTHING. Clearly I did not push myself hard enough, even though during my workout I felt like I did.

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sweaty selfie AFTER the gym when I’ve fallen onto the couch and cant get up

On a better note, I did have a personal triumph at the gym (by myself) this week that I was really excited about 🙂 It was Sunday and I really did not want to be at the gym. I could not mentally wrap my head around a workout so, with a great pep talk from my friend, I decided that it was a cardio night. After spending 25 minutes on the bike and getting my stretches in, I decided to spend the rest of my time on the treadmill. 5 minutes in and I was ready to go home but I kept telling myself “1 more minute” or “after this song is done” or “finish this lap”. After 15 minutes I still did not want to be at the gym BUT I did feel like the walking wasnt enough so…I jogged. If you know me, or have read my blog, then you know that I am not necessarily supposed to jog because of the arthritis in my feet. But I felt really good and I felt like I could. I jogged for 3 minutes straight. Maybe that doesn’t seem like a lot of time to most people but for me, someone who hasn’t even attempted jogging in over 2 years, its huge. It felt amazing and although I could feel my feet hurting it wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. I didn’t push myself over the edge because I knew I wouldn’t be able to walk the next day if I did but I’m proud of myself.

So clearly some days I need to really push myself. Wether its to lift more weights, do more squats or just to keep going on my own. I made it a total of 20 minutes on the treadmill Sunday night, 3 of those jogging, before calling it a night. I pushed through that mental road block and am so glad that I didn’t leave after only 5, 10, or 15 minutes. Accomplishments, whether they are big or small, and progress in the right direction should always be celebrated.

Headed In The Right Direction

This past week has been amazing in terms of motivation and actual workouts. My meal planning was not as spot on as it was last week, but that doesn’t mean that I didn’t prep at all. I’m waiting for SOMEONE to make cabbage soup with my weekend leftovers soo…I prepped for 2 days instead of the whole week lol

My meal plan for this week includes:

Breakfast 310 calories, 42 carbs – toast with cottage cheese and mini-medley tomatoes

Lunch415 calories, 60 carbs – brown rice, glazed carrots, and my turkey and spinach meat balls OR cabbage soup (once its made and IF there are left overs)

Snacks 90 calories, 4 carbs – mini cucumbers and humus

Monday, as always, was Zumba night. I wasnt feeling great, but I participated. It was a half-assed participation but I made it through the entire hour so I call that a success haha.

My sister and I had talked about wanting to go back to the gym. We also agreed how difficult it was to go to the gym without some kind of partner to encourage us. I need that in my life. I can almost guarantee that I will not go to the gym unless I am going with someone.

So guess what I did on Wednesday AND Thursday?! I went to the GYM :O. It was awful and wonderful all at the same time.

Wednesday was leg day and cardio. I choose the bike almost every time, mostly because of the arthritis in my feet. My legs hurt the next day and by day 2 I couldn’t walk to save my life! But honestly, I welcomed the pain. Yes I bitched about it to anyone who would listen, but I loved every second of it. It meant that I was building muscle and what does muscle do? Muscle helps burn fat 🙂

Thursday I actually pushed my sister to go back to the gym. I was definitely feeling the motivation to get moving. We decided to do arms and abs and then I went for a walk on the treadmill to try and stretch out my sore legs. I would not recommend this as I wanted to keel over the next day lol I should have just done some really good stretches through my thighs instead.

I find the gym or going for a really good walk (it would be run if I was allowed to run) really clears your head. For me this is huge. I over think everything. I re-play conversations or interactions with people over and over again in my head until I am crazily analyzing everything that happened that day or the day before. So I need the gym, the physical exertion, to clear my mind. To think only of what move to do next, what muscle group to work, to push harder…that was bliss to me this week.

I have Zumba again tonight and plan on heading back to the gym at least 2 nights this week. I can’t believe I am saying this but…I am STOKED haha

“Weight loss is like driving: If you ever veer off the the road, just make a U-turn and head back in the right direction.”

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Me and the SEESTER showing off our lack of guns (or at least my lack of guns) at the gym lol

Meal Prepping Like A Boss

My post last week spoke to the fact that I needed to get back on track in terms of meal prepping. Sunday is my meal prep day and meal prep is exactly what I did! It took me a few hours. It has never taken me that long to prep all my food for the week. However, those 5 hours also included cooking our family dinner and pumpkin muffins (as per my little punk’s request to bake with her momma).

I think because it has been a little while since I did a full week’s meal prep that it is just going to take me a minute to get back into the swing of things. I say this because honestly, spending my ENTIRE Sunday cooking is NOT my idea of fun. It is also not realistic for most people, including myself. I am a single mom. I have my daughter 100% of the time. I also work full time, 6 days a week. Sunday is my only FULL day off and I will not spend it meal prepping my life away lol. I will get it down to 2-3 hours, even if it kills me to do so.

Anyways! My meal plan for the week is as follows:

Breakfast: 207 calories, 5 carbs

  • Egg Muffins with zuchinni and mushrooms (I will post my recipe later on, as these are REALLY good)
  • ½ cup of cottage cheese
  • COFFEE….lots and lots of coffee J

Lunch: 243 calories, 27 carbs

  • Cauliflower fried ‘rice’ with about ¼ cup of regular minute rice (added to bring my carb count up)
  • Cilantro-Lime chicken breast

Dinner:

This is always the toughest because I do not cook dinner, myself, through the week. I have the privilege of my mom cooking dinner for the family during the week (I cook all meals on the weekends) and I do not DARE tell her what to cook lol So this is where my caloric and carbohydrate intake fluctuates the most. I will keep in mind my serving sizes and I ALWAYS have veggies on hand to help fill me up in the instance that she has cooked something that doesn’t fit into my idea of what a balanced meal should be. Wish me luck on this one.

Snacks: 259 calories, 38 carbs (I probably won’t eat all of these snacks on a normal day, these are just the ones that I have prepared for this week. I will probably eat 2 of 3 each day)

  • Cucumbers with skinny cow cheese (if you haven’t tried this…do it now)
  • Apple with peanut butter
  • Watermelon and a few grapes

*Keep in mind that, as a diabetic, I am SUPPOSED to eat 40-60 carbs at each meal. This never was a problem before but I didn’t seem to take this into consideration this week and barely made anything with carbohydrates in it! Today my blood sugar is on the higher side, so low carb wont hurt me. But on a day that my blood sugar is running on the lower side I might be in a bit more trouble. The only thing is that if you add carbs, you add calories. 😦

So this week’s meal prep was a success. Here is to hoping that next week goes a little more smoothly in terms of how much time it actually takes me to prep 🙂

Have a good one!

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Someone else wanted my Egg Muffins too ❤ lol

Getting My Groove Back

quote-fitness-motivationThis blog is supposed to be real, and full of what I am actually doing with my fitness journey, so that is exactly what I am doing today. Filling you in on my current ‘Journey’ or motivation plateau as I am calling it right now.

These past few weeks have been so hard in terms of motivation and pre planning of my meals. Meal planning, for me, is key! If I don’t prep my meals on the weekends, I eat like crap all week. I don’t make my lunch, therefore I eat out. I don’t bring my breakfast and snacks, therefore I grab a breakfast sandwich with my coffee on the way to work. And working out? A real, muscle-building, cardio fuelled, calorie burning work out? There is not a chance in hell.

These past few weeks have been a bust. It kills me to write this but I have gained back 2 pounds of the 13 pounds that I lost so far this year. I know some people may say well 2 pounds isn’t SO bad. But you know what? I worked my ass off to lose those 2 pounds. It took me weeks to lose those 2 pounds in the first place and I’ve let them come back. I am pissed at myself.

I can feel the difference in my body that ‘JUST’ 2 pounds creates. The unease within myself knowing that they are there. I know this is in my head but with those 2 pounds comes an anxiety that I can feel like no other. ‘What have I done!’ ‘All that work for nothing’ ‘You will never lose the weight that you wanted to lose’.02b6db8964fbd93b4b34cfdd9442aa34

However, this current week has been a little bit different. This week I met up with a friend who I hadn’t seen in a long time. This friend has been through a lot of stuff in his life but he is getting his shit together. In his blog the other day he said:

‘The beauty of life is that it is what we make it. We can choose to stand still, live in negativity…Or we can scrape our sorry asses off the pity train and live! I choose to live!’

I realized, when I read this, that this is EXACTLY what I need to do. I am scraping my sorry ass off the pity train and getting my shit together lol.

Now I may not be ready to hit the gym with him anytime soon BUT I am taking  steps (albeit small) to get that motivation back that I had, not too long ago. Going for walks, Zumba, thinking of putting those DREADED T25 videos back on, or God forbid get on a bicycle haha (that is a funny sight to see). I felt that negative, anxiety filled, energy pulling in a different direction this week. I’ve pinned some new recipes for my weekend meal prep. I’m planning my grocery list as we speak and I will work out MORE than my once a week Zumba class.

This is me, being accountable for my choices and my life. This is me, hitting a small fork in the road. And this is me, getting my groove back.

Have you ever hit a motivation plateau? What did you do to get out of it?

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Zumba-Week 2

wpid-20150928_193714.jpgLast week I paid upfront for all of the Zumba classes in the session, which ensures that I will make it to ALL of the classes. Thats 11 weeks of shaking my ass and watching my jiggly bits jiggle. Thank God there are no mirrors in the room 😀 haha.

It was a great class, but on a T25 scale of Nailed It, or Barely Made It….It was the latter. I felt as though I was tripping over my feet, couldnt nail the moves, and was barely breathing by the end. I huffed and puffed through the entire class. I almost fell on my neighbour because I tripped on my pant leg. I had to stop before the very last song because my foot was so cramped up I couldnt walk on it.

By the end of the class I was drenched from head to toe but I felt amazing. Through all of the trip ups and mistakes (so many mistakes hehe) I was still so glad that I went and made it through the class. I felt energized and happy after that amazing workout and after being surrounded by other beautiful woman like myself who made the same mistakes and missteps that I did. All in all it was a great class and I cannot wait to go back next week.

This is just a snap shot of the impact that my Zumba workout had on my day via my FitBit:day impact 28th

And this is to show you that I (pretty much) reached my goal of 10,000 steps in 1 day which NEVER happens via my FitBit:Sept 28th

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Yumm-O!

Diet. Diet is an aweful word. Its a FOUR letter word in our house, if you catch my drift. 😉  But diet in terms of what you eat, not necessarily being on a diet, is a huge part of a weight loss journey. At least it really should be. If you are not making a conscious decision to eat healthy(er) then, in my opinion, you are eating yourself to death.

I know that I was personally eatting myself to death. If I kept going the way that I was going I would die much sooner than I wanted to. For me, I make a consious decision to eat healthier every day. Its not easy in any way, in fact its Fucking difficult. Its hard. I dont always eat healthy 100% of the time. I still eat crap that I crave or just really want, but I make a consious choice of putting something into my body instead of doing it absent mindedly like I use to.

I track my calories EVERY DAY, even on my bad days where I just cant seem to fill up.  I have weeks (usually the week before my monthly visitor) where I just want to eat everything in site…and yes it happens. I dont feel too bad about it though because I still have to live my life. I dont want to feel like I’ve deprived myself everyday from things that I want. At the end of the day I still want to feel like I lived a life and really, truely ENJOYED it and that includes eating yummy food!

Anyways, I thought I would post one of my favourite recipes that I am in love with right now. If you know me, then you know that I am addicted to Pinterest! and I have a few boards dedicated to Healthy meals, healthy lunches, healthy snacks etc. Well I found this recipe at Home Cooked Memories and it is to die for! Baked Turkey Meatballs with Spinache.  They are so moist and flavourful that you would not even know that they are under 55 calories each!

I made a big batch and I froze them in a large ziploc bag. Now I just go in when I’m prepping my lunches and grab a few to throw in as my protein. They are amazing when you reheat them, they didn’t seem to dry out at all. This was my lunch today. I used 3 meatballs, 1 cup of Uncle Bens rice and 2 cups of steamed broccoli and cauliflower. You can make your rice or grain however you want, I just choose Uncle Bens for convenience.

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Well here is the recipe and a link to the blog where I found them:

Baked Turkey Meatballs with Spinach

Ingredients
  • 2 tablespoons olive oil
  • 1 large onion, finely chopped
  • 2 garlic cloves, finely minced
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • ½ teaspoon ground black pepper
  • ¼ teaspoon dried thyme leaves
  • ½ teaspoon dried oregano
  • ¼ – ½ teaspoon crushed red pepper flakes (optional – adjust to your preference)
  • 16 oz frozen chopped spinach (defrosted, drained, and squeezed to remove excess water)
  • 2 tablespoons Worcestershire sauce
  • ⅓ cup chicken broth
  • 2½ lbs lean ground turkey
  • ¾ cup bread crumbs
  • 2 large eggs
Instructions
  1. Preheat oven to 400 degrees F. Prepare a large baking sheet by spraying with cooking spray. I actually line my baking sheet with foil and then spray with cooking spray.
  2. In a frying pan on medium heat, heat olive oil until hot. Then add onion, garlic, salt, pepper, thyme, oregano, and red pepper flakes. Sauté until onion is tender (about 5-6 minutes total time).
  3. Add spinach to pan and combine with onion mixture. Add Worcestershire sauce and chicken broth and mix well to combine. Cook until most of the liquid has cooked out (evaporated). I don’t have much liquid in my pan after I combine all these, but it will depend on how well you drained your spinach. Remove from heat and allow to cool to room temperature.
  4. In a large bowl, combine the turkey, bread crumbs, and egg. Add cooled onion/spinach mixture to the meat. I do all of this step with my hands, but you can use a spoon if you prefer.
  5. 5. With your hands, create meatballs that are about 1 – 1½ inches in diameter and place them on the baking sheet. Leave a little bit of space between each meatball. When you are done shaping your meatballs, you will probably have about 40-42 meatballs from this recipe. Don’t need that many? Freeze them after baking or cut this recipe in half (but I say freeze them and then you’ve done the work only once and have a future meal).
  6. Bake until your meatballs are cooked through with an internal temperature of 160 degrees F – which was about 20 minutes for my oven. Remove from oven and serve as desired.

Challenge Accepted!

Challenge groups. Challenge groups are the way to go. And a challenge is what I have accepted.

A challenge group is where my journey really began. T25 is where I started with a 30 day challenge. I figured 30 Days was easy enough and I got through it. Then I did another and another but I found that if I wasn’t in a challenge group that I did not push myself.  If I didn’t have a group to be inspired by and post to then I didn’t feel motivated to work out.

I needed to be accountable so I joined a new group. I joined a 100 day challenge group!! I figured that if I could do some 30 day challenges then I could absolutely do this.

So here it goes! 1 day down 99 to go!

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Another Day, Another Beach Body Challenge

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Got to try Cize last night! So much fun, cant wait to do it again! I was so hot afterwards that my glasses steamed up lol ❤

I joined another 30 day Beach Body Challenge this weekend. I know what your thinking…another one? Whats the point?

For me, the 30 day beach body challenges are more for accountability and short term goals for me. Im not loving the T25 Challenge group. The only reason is because there is almost no one in the group, or no one posting. Its boring. The 30 day challenges are great because there is usually a lot more people, who are all doing the same thing you are. Plus, I find the 30 days much less daunting than thinking about how Im going to be working out like this for the next 10 weeks lol. Also, I find myself more willing to write encouraging or motivational posts or ideas in the 30 day challenge which makes me more engaged in the group.

So anyways, my Beach Body Coach posed this question to us: What tools/tricks do you use to hold yourself accountable? What tools/tricks do you use to schedule your workouts, mealtimes, staying on track?

Her post:

You can DO a whole LOT in just ONE day- When you PLAN!
Planning ahead and having some sort of schedule for yourself, especially while participating in a workout program, will give you more hours in the day and take off some of the stress!
*Comment below what YOU are doing to hold yourself accountable, or what TOOLS/TRICKS do you use to schedule your workouts and mealtimes? Any tips for staying on track?*

It’s not about time management, but self-management. And you’ll welcome the reward of a great many accomplishments—personal, professional, and physical.

My answer:

I don’t plan my times for workouts or family time etc. It’s hard for us because my daughter needs a less structured environment when it comes to home time and family time. That being said my daughter goes to bed around the same time every night (8pm ish). As soon as she is in bed lunches are made and a workout is usually done. Most nights these things are completed by 9pm. This gives me plenty of time to relax or do other house work before I go to bed.

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An example of one of my prepped snacks for the week: 2 slices of oven roasted low-fat turkey breast and a cheese stick. This is great for after a workout of just a good way to get some extra protein in.

I have a ton of short term goals. I find that they are easier to attain and you feel motivation and gratification because you reach them so much quicker. It’s like having a light in the middle of the tunnel instead of way at the end lol. I have long term goals as well but those are a long ways a way and without my short term goals I believe I would get very discouraged.

The last, and probably most important tool, that I use is meal prep. Sundays are our grocery shopping and meal prep days. So we plan what we are going to have for breakfast and lunch and snacks for the week. After getting what we need from the store we go home and cook. I make a big pot of something or recipe that I found or always loved and make enough of it to last me the week. I separate it into individual containers for each day so that I can just grab it and go. I prep all my fruit and veggies in individual containers as well. I don’t think I would be able to make it through the week without eating out if I didn’t do this. All of my daughters snacks are prepped just like mine. So it only takes about 15 minutes each night to put the lunches together with all healthy servings!

Anyways, long post but those are my tools and tricks that get me through.

I just thought Id share.

Have a great one 🙂