Please donate today

Good morning,

I am participating in the Big Bike Ride to support Heart and Stroke and could really use any help you are willing to give.

Normally I would never ask you for anything, but today I am asking for you to think of all the people in your life who have suffered from Heart attacks, stroke, heart disease etc. Those people in your life would not have gotten the care that they did without this organization. I know that personally a few people in my family and one of my very best friends would not be here today if it was not for this organization.

So now I am asking you to please donate today to my Big Bike Fundraiser for the Heart and Stroke Foundation. This foundation means a lot to me and my family. And of course, I am competitive so I want to raise as much money as I can. My company matches whatever donations we raise so if you give $1, it will actually be $2 etc.

If you are willing to make a donation, please click on the link below.

Thank you for your generosity.

http://support.heartandstroke.ca/site/TR/BigBike2015/BB_General_2015?px=1081352&pg=personal&fr_id=1560

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Goodbye To You

Today is the end of our 30 Day Beach Body Challenge. It makes me kind of sad, but really happy and excited at that same time. Sad because the Beach Body membership is pretty cool for when you get bored of the same video over and over. Happy and excited because I definitely purchased the right program for me and this just solidified that I am ready for this next chapter in my fitness and weight loss journey.

The real downside to today (in my eyes anyways lol) is the weigh in. Measurements, weights and after pictures. If youve been reading my blog you know how much I LOVE this part (NOT).

I weighed in and truthfully I am extremely discouraged. I haven’t lost a single pound in 3 weeks. Like literally have not fluctuated at all. I just want to scream WHAT THE FUCK! People say it’s not about the weight your loosing its about the change in your body but my clothes aren’t fitting any better either. The only positive difference I have noticed has been my energy level and mood. These changes are amazing but not all that I was looking for. I was not asking for much. I would have been happy with 1 or 2 pounds but nothing? Gawd! Ok I’m ranting now…Oops.

Measurements and pictures will come some time this week. When I’ve picked myself back up from this mild depression that I’ve found myself in and kicked my ass back into gear.

I am by no means giving up. I can picture the life that I want and I’m going to work until I get it. Sometimes you just need to have a little pity party along the way.

Current weight: 224

Trying Something New (Warning, this is a long post)

I have¬†worked out hard 4 out of 5 days so far this week. That is pretty great if I do say so myself. This week got off to a rocky start. Sunday (as you know) was my migraine day but I worked out anyways. Monday was an emotional roller coaster of a day with my cousin going into labour 9 weeks early, my bestie having some horrible personal troubles and me only loosing 1 pound in the past week. So my friend and I had a night of girl talk instead of working out. But the rest of the week is going by smashingly. ūüôā

This week I got back into food prep mode because honestly I had been slacking major in this department for a week or so. One of my best friends, who I actually met through work and have had the pleasure of working with for the past almost 3 years, was quitting. So for the last week or so we’ve been going out for lunch, A LOT! I am going to miss his crazy-ness but I digress. I got back on track over the weekend and am feeling good about it.

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Tuesday sweaty selfie after T25 ab intervals.

Tuesday we decided to switch it up from our usual routine of Cardio or Speed 1.0 and we went with one of our other favourites, T25 Ab Intervals. If this is a problem area for you, you really need to try this workout. It works all the muscles in your abdomin and you can really feel it! I can still feel it 2 days later when I have trouble sitting up in my bed haha.

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Being Goofy after 10 minute trainer and another 15 minutes of Turbo Fire and intervals.

Wednesday we really changed it up and went with a totally different workout program.  It was called 10 minute trainer. The moves were not so difficult that you could not follow along but it was difficult in the fact that you were out of breath within two minutes and your muscles were really tired out. I liked this workout for the fact that it only took 10 minutes. Quick and to the point. Overall though, I definately missed my Shawn T time. I found that I caught my breath, and my heart rate was right back to normal, within a few minutes. I didnt feel like I was finished so, I tried out Turbo Fire for a few minutes but ended up just running through a few drills from my T25 Cardio/Speed videos that I remembered.

The thing that I love¬†about T25 anything is…its only 25 minutes! You sweat your ass off and tire out whatever group¬†of muscles that you are working on, but it only lasts for 25 minutes. After that 25 minutes, you can STILL feel your body working. Your heart beat is elevated and muscles are tired for so much longer after your workout which means that you are still burning calories when your finished (AKA, flopped on the couch, breathing heavy but watching your favourite TV show).

What did I learn from this trial and error? I learned that I definately purchased the right program for me. T25 is my kind of workout and I cannot wait until this 30 day challenge is finished so that I can officially start the T25 10 week program!

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Wednesday Night Workouts. 10 Minute Trainer. The little man was helping us.

This is still only the beginning.

Never Giving Up

Wow. The last few days have been brutal. I have had no energy, no will power, no motivation at all.

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Being silly and sweaty after T25 Cardio on Thursday night
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Stacey being silly and sweaty after T 25 Cardio on Thursday night.

We worked out really hard Thursday and Friday. We decided to do T25 Speed 1.0 and Cardio. They are still really difficult for us, but we have definitely noticed improvements. We are able to work harder during the workouts and sweat a lot more. We still plan to work through the rest of the T25 Alpha videos but we will be focusing on the Speed and Cardio videos. We like these two videos the most.

My goal for focusing on Speed and Cardio is to make it through the entire video without taking a break. Currently I am huffing and puffing 5 minutes in. I usually make it about 10 minutes before I have to grab a sip of water or stand for a minute and take some deep breaths. So I want to eventually make it the entire video without MAXING OUT as they call it in Shaun T land :). Stacey’s goal is to make it the entire video without having to modify. I think that is an amazing goal! I wont get there myself with my arthritis (jumping hurts like a B*TCH) but she will definitely be able to accomplish this goal.


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SWEATY SEFLIE! Gave 110% during T25 Speed 1.0 Friday night.
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Sweaty Selfie! Literally dripping sweat from working it hard on T25 Speed 1.0 Friday night.

This past weekend I hadn’t felt myself and it was really starting to put a damper on things. I had a bad migraine (possibly due to no caffeine or the fact that my period may want to rear its ugly head) and a horrible stomach ache. So I had no motivation. The motivation that I did have, was spent on housework and meal prep for the week. I really didn’t feel like working out Sunday¬†but I knew that I needed to. I suppose doing a half assed workout is better than sitting on said ass doing nothing right?

We did end up doing Speed 1.0 Sunday night after all. I know that I didn’t put my all¬†into it like I have been but I think that’s¬†OK. I still pushed play right? I worked out anyways.¬†Sometimes that is all we can ask of ourselves.

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T25 Speed 1.0. Worked on our speed and stability Sunday night.

The Goals For My Future

I was asked a few simple questions today. A few simple questions that have made me realize that I have been lying to myself for a really long time. I was asked: What made you decide to loose weight now? Whats different from the last time you tried to loose weight? What are your goals and when do you think you will achieve them?

2 years ago, I got it into my head that I was going to loose 100 pounds in a year. Easy enough right? I was working out, mainly speed walking at the gym, when I started getting horrible pain in my feet. I later found out that I have arthritis, in my feet and knee, at the ripe old age of 25 (at the time). I also got a really horrible tissue infection in my right leg that left me down for the count for about 6 weeks. These were all really good excuses as to why I quit.

In all reality, I was scared shit-less. Scared of the pain in my feet and scared of infection returning to my leg. I never told anyone that until a few months ago. I think actually telling someone my fear is what really helped me decide that it was time to try again. Hearing myself say out loud “I am afraid” brought me to reality.

So I begin again.

My weight loss Journey.

Why now?

I am sick and tired of being fat! Being a BBW is fine, and I do love myself. I am beautiful, intelligent, strong willed and I have a killer personality but being fat sucks! I cannot do everything that I want to do in life, while I am in this body.

How long will it take?

This time around I put no time limit on my journey. It will take as long as I need it to take. Maybe three years, maybe it will never be over, and that’s OK.

My Goals?

I believe my goals will be ever changing. That is why my journey may never be over. But for now my goals are as follows:

1) Lead a healthy lifestyle.

This includes eating healthier (not any specific diet, I am still going to live my life, but just healthier choices), and getting active. This will help me, and hopefully set a better example for my daughter.

2) Loose 20 pounds.

This is my first actual weight loss goal. Once I reach it I will up the anti but for now…I am half way there!

3) Be under 200 pounds.

My goal weight is 150 pounds but I am not focusing on that just yet. Getting under 200 pounds will be a huge accomplishment as I have not been that weight since I was about 17 years old.

4) Be able to shop in ANY store I want.

This is actually a huge one for me. I have been shopping in plus size stores since I was 17, and paying the plus size price tag as well. I love that there are stores targeted specifically to plus size woman. There are even stores targeted to YOUNG plus size woman. But you know what? Im sick of being confined to a few stores that I can buy clothing at.

I am a young 20 something. I want to be able to walk into any store, try something on, and have it fit! I want to be able to be on trend and be able to go shopping where all of my girlfriends shop instead of dragging them to Addition-elle or Maurice or Penningtons for myself. I want to be able to buy what I want, from wherever I want.

5) Stop saying no to active play with my daughter.

I do this. I know every parent doeswpid-20150226_174802.jpg it at some point or another but I do it so often that my daughter no longer wants to do anything active, even if I suggest it. I feel like a failure in this aspect but that is going to change. We will get outside and do things together and I will no longer say no, or take no for an answer.

Why is this time different than the last?

I am sick of making up excuses as to why I ‘cant’ excersize. I am an able bodied person. It might take me double the time to do the same workout as someone half my size, I may have to modifty every single move for my arthritis and just because I am not up to that specific skill set or speed yet, but thats OK! Thats OK because Im not going to sit on my ass and watch my life go by anymore. I am going to get up and live it.

My Motivation

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