Re-United And It Feels So Good!

Reunited and it feels so good!

Taking a week off of Zumba was the worst decision EVER!

Due to unforseeable circumstances, both nights of our Zumba class got cancelled last week. I took full advantage of this, especially considering that my lady business had started and I was feeling like crap. So I lounged around (except for getting all of my steps the night of Halloween), I did little to no excersize…AKA I did NOTHING! I went to work and then came home and sat on my ass! lol

Getting back to it last night was so difficult. Even after just 1 week; I couldnt catch my breath, my muscles spasmed half way through class, and I was totally beat by the end. But man was I proud of myself.

Even though I felt like the class was harder (due to having the week before off and taking FULL advantage of it) I kicked ASS. I got through ENTIRE songs that I have never been able to get through before. I did moves, jumps, kicks that I am not ALWAYS able to do. I performed at a level that I never have before. I’m not sure WHY but damn did it feel good!

It doesn’t feel so great today but I kind of love that burn. It means I worked hard and I will have something to show for it.

Zumba is honestly my saving grace. What is yours?

The Goals For My Future

I was asked a few simple questions today. A few simple questions that have made me realize that I have been lying to myself for a really long time. I was asked: What made you decide to loose weight now? Whats different from the last time you tried to loose weight? What are your goals and when do you think you will achieve them?

2 years ago, I got it into my head that I was going to loose 100 pounds in a year. Easy enough right? I was working out, mainly speed walking at the gym, when I started getting horrible pain in my feet. I later found out that I have arthritis, in my feet and knee, at the ripe old age of 25 (at the time). I also got a really horrible tissue infection in my right leg that left me down for the count for about 6 weeks. These were all really good excuses as to why I quit.

In all reality, I was scared shit-less. Scared of the pain in my feet and scared of infection returning to my leg. I never told anyone that until a few months ago. I think actually telling someone my fear is what really helped me decide that it was time to try again. Hearing myself say out loud “I am afraid” brought me to reality.

So I begin again.

My weight loss Journey.

Why now?

I am sick and tired of being fat! Being a BBW is fine, and I do love myself. I am beautiful, intelligent, strong willed and I have a killer personality but being fat sucks! I cannot do everything that I want to do in life, while I am in this body.

How long will it take?

This time around I put no time limit on my journey. It will take as long as I need it to take. Maybe three years, maybe it will never be over, and that’s OK.

My Goals?

I believe my goals will be ever changing. That is why my journey may never be over. But for now my goals are as follows:

1) Lead a healthy lifestyle.

This includes eating healthier (not any specific diet, I am still going to live my life, but just healthier choices), and getting active. This will help me, and hopefully set a better example for my daughter.

2) Loose 20 pounds.

This is my first actual weight loss goal. Once I reach it I will up the anti but for now…I am half way there!

3) Be under 200 pounds.

My goal weight is 150 pounds but I am not focusing on that just yet. Getting under 200 pounds will be a huge accomplishment as I have not been that weight since I was about 17 years old.

4) Be able to shop in ANY store I want.

This is actually a huge one for me. I have been shopping in plus size stores since I was 17, and paying the plus size price tag as well. I love that there are stores targeted specifically to plus size woman. There are even stores targeted to YOUNG plus size woman. But you know what? Im sick of being confined to a few stores that I can buy clothing at.

I am a young 20 something. I want to be able to walk into any store, try something on, and have it fit! I want to be able to be on trend and be able to go shopping where all of my girlfriends shop instead of dragging them to Addition-elle or Maurice or Penningtons for myself. I want to be able to buy what I want, from wherever I want.

5) Stop saying no to active play with my daughter.

I do this. I know every parent doeswpid-20150226_174802.jpg it at some point or another but I do it so often that my daughter no longer wants to do anything active, even if I suggest it. I feel like a failure in this aspect but that is going to change. We will get outside and do things together and I will no longer say no, or take no for an answer.

Why is this time different than the last?

I am sick of making up excuses as to why I ‘cant’ excersize. I am an able bodied person. It might take me double the time to do the same workout as someone half my size, I may have to modifty every single move for my arthritis and just because I am not up to that specific skill set or speed yet, but thats OK! Thats OK because Im not going to sit on my ass and watch my life go by anymore. I am going to get up and live it.

My Motivation

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Tight and Sore

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Sweaty Selfie #3 after stretching/yoga

Yesterday was day three of my fitness journey and the 3rd day of working out. I am having difficulty describing the degree of soreness that I was feeling. Have you ever seen a very old man hobbling around with a cane or walker? Have you ever noticed how slowly he has to choose his steps or how his legs are a bit bowed? That was me all day. Getting up from a chair or sitting down in a chair was almost excruciating; and climbing or walking down stairs without your legs giving out, IMPOSSIBLE.

Since we were so sore, we decided to go a the T25 Stretch video as our workout for the night and I am so glad that we did. It was 25 minutes of intense stretches for your whole body. There were quick moving, fluid stretches. There were static poses that you had to hold. There were a few times that I could not hold those poses and pretty much fell over because I have no balance what so ever lol.

We were still sweating by the end, showing that we were actually getting a good workout, and our muscles felt pretty great by the end. Our muscles did not feel 100% but they were noticeably looser and did not hurt as much.

I recommend, after doing the stretches to get rid of the tension in your muscles, to take a bath. Epson salt with peppermint essential oils is amazing and helps to relax ailing muscles. I felt amazing after my bath and stretches and went straight to bed.


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Sweaty Selfie #4 after T25 Speed 1.0

T25 Speed 1.0 kicked our butts tonight! My goodness what a workout!

It was crazy. I had to do the modifiers throughout the entire workout but I was still sweating my butt off even halfway through. Actually, this is the most we have sweat for any of the workouts so far.

Truthfully, I didn’t think that I would make it through this workout. I had to stop a few times to catch my breath and grab a quick sip of water. It really keeps you moving through the entire workout. The thing is, I DID make it.  And you know what? I am so proud of myself!

It took me about 20 minutes, even after a cool down and cold shower, to officially catch my breath, but afterwards I felt pretty amazing. I cannot wait to do again!