Step Goals-EPIC FAIL

 Alright I am just going to be honest here. I have NOT been achieving my goals this week.

I am definitely getting more steps each day than I have been previously but not getting anywhere near my 10,000 step goal. I am telling you because I thought I needed to be honest with myself. I thought I needed to be honest with YOU (whoever actually reads this).

This shit is hard.

I walked at lunch the first 2 days of this week and I STILL hurt. My thighs and calves KILL. Which is awful because, while we did go at a very fast pace, we only went for 30 minutes each time! My muscles should NOT get this tired this quickly. Cant even believe it.

I have walked 2 out of 4 days at lunch. Appointments kept me from getting those other two lunch time walking dates in. By the time I get home its dinner, laundry, lunches, kid in bed and then I am exhausted and go to bed. I literally fell asleep IN my daughter’s bed with her last night at 9PM. I am one tired momma!

Trying to get up more often from my desk and move around is also proving difficult in my line of work. Fielding calls every few minutes, inbetween the constant berating of emails and meetings. It gets crazy! I know…I need to just get it done! I need to just make it a point to get up and go for a 5 minute walk EVERY HOUR. I need to stop making excuses.

I am planning on getting my goals for the rest of the week. Tonight (Thursday) we are headed to the fair which requires TONS of walking, same with tomorrow. Saturday we are walking and DANCING in a parade which will be 5K+ so I will definitely get my 10,000 steps in that day. Sunday is grocery shopping and meal prepping so who knows if I will actually hit my 10,000 step goal but I will be trying!

I am not giving up! I need this routine in my life. Maybe then I will feel that drive to work out that I have missed so much. As for right now…I still don’t feel it L That’s one thing that I really do miss. That CRAVE you get to sweat and breathe heavy…I need to feel that want and I need to feel it now!

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Me after my first 30 minute walk during lunch. My legs didnt hurt then but they do now!

 

 

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Pushing Through

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Sweaty selfie after Zumba class 😀

This past week has been full of motivation and pushing through.

If you read my recipe post then you know that my weight is down another 2 pounds, which is crazy in the 2 weeks that I’ve been giving it my all. Then I made the mistake of weighing myself again last night.  I gained back those 2 pounds plus 1. I don’t know why I felt the need to get on the scale. What is our obsession? I know that the 3 pound weight gain is incorrect. I had JUST eaten, I had just finished Zumba an hour before and I am about to start my period (sorry for the over share). This is not the day that I usually weigh myself and I vow not to weigh myself mid-week ever again lol

Getting back on topic though. Zumba is still going great, I am still loving every sweaty second of it! It blows my mind to see how many steps you take and how many calories you actually burn in that hour. It literally accounts for over half my steps on that day and it seems to go by so quickly.

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sweaty selfie at the gym

The gym is going well, but I am still finding it really difficult to get there. Not even to physically get there (I live 2 minutes away), but to mentally prepare myself to work out in the way that you work out at a gym. I find myself standing there, staring at all the machines not knowing which ones to do in what order. I also find that when I go to the gym by myself, I DO NOT push hard enough. Example: I went to the gym with my sister and we killed it. I felt that wonderfully awful pain in my muscles for days- that only a good workout can give you. The next week, I went to the gym by myself and thought I killed it! But during the next few days I waited for that delicious muscle pain and felt NOTHING. Clearly I did not push myself hard enough, even though during my workout I felt like I did.

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sweaty selfie AFTER the gym when I’ve fallen onto the couch and cant get up

On a better note, I did have a personal triumph at the gym (by myself) this week that I was really excited about 🙂 It was Sunday and I really did not want to be at the gym. I could not mentally wrap my head around a workout so, with a great pep talk from my friend, I decided that it was a cardio night. After spending 25 minutes on the bike and getting my stretches in, I decided to spend the rest of my time on the treadmill. 5 minutes in and I was ready to go home but I kept telling myself “1 more minute” or “after this song is done” or “finish this lap”. After 15 minutes I still did not want to be at the gym BUT I did feel like the walking wasnt enough so…I jogged. If you know me, or have read my blog, then you know that I am not necessarily supposed to jog because of the arthritis in my feet. But I felt really good and I felt like I could. I jogged for 3 minutes straight. Maybe that doesn’t seem like a lot of time to most people but for me, someone who hasn’t even attempted jogging in over 2 years, its huge. It felt amazing and although I could feel my feet hurting it wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. I didn’t push myself over the edge because I knew I wouldn’t be able to walk the next day if I did but I’m proud of myself.

So clearly some days I need to really push myself. Wether its to lift more weights, do more squats or just to keep going on my own. I made it a total of 20 minutes on the treadmill Sunday night, 3 of those jogging, before calling it a night. I pushed through that mental road block and am so glad that I didn’t leave after only 5, 10, or 15 minutes. Accomplishments, whether they are big or small, and progress in the right direction should always be celebrated.

Getting My Groove Back

quote-fitness-motivationThis blog is supposed to be real, and full of what I am actually doing with my fitness journey, so that is exactly what I am doing today. Filling you in on my current ‘Journey’ or motivation plateau as I am calling it right now.

These past few weeks have been so hard in terms of motivation and pre planning of my meals. Meal planning, for me, is key! If I don’t prep my meals on the weekends, I eat like crap all week. I don’t make my lunch, therefore I eat out. I don’t bring my breakfast and snacks, therefore I grab a breakfast sandwich with my coffee on the way to work. And working out? A real, muscle-building, cardio fuelled, calorie burning work out? There is not a chance in hell.

These past few weeks have been a bust. It kills me to write this but I have gained back 2 pounds of the 13 pounds that I lost so far this year. I know some people may say well 2 pounds isn’t SO bad. But you know what? I worked my ass off to lose those 2 pounds. It took me weeks to lose those 2 pounds in the first place and I’ve let them come back. I am pissed at myself.

I can feel the difference in my body that ‘JUST’ 2 pounds creates. The unease within myself knowing that they are there. I know this is in my head but with those 2 pounds comes an anxiety that I can feel like no other. ‘What have I done!’ ‘All that work for nothing’ ‘You will never lose the weight that you wanted to lose’.02b6db8964fbd93b4b34cfdd9442aa34

However, this current week has been a little bit different. This week I met up with a friend who I hadn’t seen in a long time. This friend has been through a lot of stuff in his life but he is getting his shit together. In his blog the other day he said:

‘The beauty of life is that it is what we make it. We can choose to stand still, live in negativity…Or we can scrape our sorry asses off the pity train and live! I choose to live!’

I realized, when I read this, that this is EXACTLY what I need to do. I am scraping my sorry ass off the pity train and getting my shit together lol.

Now I may not be ready to hit the gym with him anytime soon BUT I am taking  steps (albeit small) to get that motivation back that I had, not too long ago. Going for walks, Zumba, thinking of putting those DREADED T25 videos back on, or God forbid get on a bicycle haha (that is a funny sight to see). I felt that negative, anxiety filled, energy pulling in a different direction this week. I’ve pinned some new recipes for my weekend meal prep. I’m planning my grocery list as we speak and I will work out MORE than my once a week Zumba class.

This is me, being accountable for my choices and my life. This is me, hitting a small fork in the road. And this is me, getting my groove back.

Have you ever hit a motivation plateau? What did you do to get out of it?

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Another Day, Another Beach Body Challenge

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Got to try Cize last night! So much fun, cant wait to do it again! I was so hot afterwards that my glasses steamed up lol ❤

I joined another 30 day Beach Body Challenge this weekend. I know what your thinking…another one? Whats the point?

For me, the 30 day beach body challenges are more for accountability and short term goals for me. Im not loving the T25 Challenge group. The only reason is because there is almost no one in the group, or no one posting. Its boring. The 30 day challenges are great because there is usually a lot more people, who are all doing the same thing you are. Plus, I find the 30 days much less daunting than thinking about how Im going to be working out like this for the next 10 weeks lol. Also, I find myself more willing to write encouraging or motivational posts or ideas in the 30 day challenge which makes me more engaged in the group.

So anyways, my Beach Body Coach posed this question to us: What tools/tricks do you use to hold yourself accountable? What tools/tricks do you use to schedule your workouts, mealtimes, staying on track?

Her post:

You can DO a whole LOT in just ONE day- When you PLAN!
Planning ahead and having some sort of schedule for yourself, especially while participating in a workout program, will give you more hours in the day and take off some of the stress!
*Comment below what YOU are doing to hold yourself accountable, or what TOOLS/TRICKS do you use to schedule your workouts and mealtimes? Any tips for staying on track?*

It’s not about time management, but self-management. And you’ll welcome the reward of a great many accomplishments—personal, professional, and physical.

My answer:

I don’t plan my times for workouts or family time etc. It’s hard for us because my daughter needs a less structured environment when it comes to home time and family time. That being said my daughter goes to bed around the same time every night (8pm ish). As soon as she is in bed lunches are made and a workout is usually done. Most nights these things are completed by 9pm. This gives me plenty of time to relax or do other house work before I go to bed.

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An example of one of my prepped snacks for the week: 2 slices of oven roasted low-fat turkey breast and a cheese stick. This is great for after a workout of just a good way to get some extra protein in.

I have a ton of short term goals. I find that they are easier to attain and you feel motivation and gratification because you reach them so much quicker. It’s like having a light in the middle of the tunnel instead of way at the end lol. I have long term goals as well but those are a long ways a way and without my short term goals I believe I would get very discouraged.

The last, and probably most important tool, that I use is meal prep. Sundays are our grocery shopping and meal prep days. So we plan what we are going to have for breakfast and lunch and snacks for the week. After getting what we need from the store we go home and cook. I make a big pot of something or recipe that I found or always loved and make enough of it to last me the week. I separate it into individual containers for each day so that I can just grab it and go. I prep all my fruit and veggies in individual containers as well. I don’t think I would be able to make it through the week without eating out if I didn’t do this. All of my daughters snacks are prepped just like mine. So it only takes about 15 minutes each night to put the lunches together with all healthy servings!

Anyways, long post but those are my tools and tricks that get me through.

I just thought Id share.

Have a great one 🙂

It’s A New Dawn, It’s A New Day, It’s A New Life…and I’m Feeling Good!

I cannot believe how great I feel today. I have energy and motivation to get my work done. I feel like I could go for a run right now and it is only 9 in the morning. This is unheard of for me, ESPECIALLY on a Monday morning.

This weekend was busy and full of running around to get ready for the baby showers and parties that are coming up in the next few weeks. I still managed to get some workouts done, eat healthy, and stay within, or even under, my calorie goals. SWEET! I still allow myself to eat regularly (yes I had leftover Pizza for breakfast one day and I had sausages for dinner one day) I just make sure to be completely honest with myself when putting these foods into my calorie counter. Its working pretty well so far 🙂

On Saturday I made a stupid move. I ate right before my workout. This was a HUGE mistake. We decided to do T25 Ab Intervals that night as well. I only got about 10 minutes into it and had to stop. My stomach was killing me, I felt weak, shaky, and very nauseous. Those supermans were my undoing; laying on my stomach, on the floor, lifting my arms and legs up. Well, needless to say, I threw up about 20 minutes later. 😦 Blech. Lesson learned? Never again will I eat right before a workout.

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Sunday’s Sweaty Selfie ❤

Tonight (Sunday) we did Cardio. I DID NOT eat for about two hours before and I was good to go. I made it through the entire workout and felt amazing afterwards. I still have trouble doing all of those squats though. My legs just want to give out! One of my new goals is to make it through an entire T25 Cardio or Speed workout without having to take any amount of breaks while doing squats! I think at the rate I am going that this will be a very manageable goal.

Our 30 day Beach Body Challenge is just about up. My next challenge will begin soon; T25 Focus 10 week program! I am so glad that I started this journey. Starting really is the hardest part! Now I need it. I am craving it! Its crazy really, but I know that this is still just the beginning to the rest of my life.

It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, it’s a new life, and I’m FEELING GOOD!

Never Giving Up

Wow. The last few days have been brutal. I have had no energy, no will power, no motivation at all.

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Being silly and sweaty after T25 Cardio on Thursday night
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Stacey being silly and sweaty after T 25 Cardio on Thursday night.

We worked out really hard Thursday and Friday. We decided to do T25 Speed 1.0 and Cardio. They are still really difficult for us, but we have definitely noticed improvements. We are able to work harder during the workouts and sweat a lot more. We still plan to work through the rest of the T25 Alpha videos but we will be focusing on the Speed and Cardio videos. We like these two videos the most.

My goal for focusing on Speed and Cardio is to make it through the entire video without taking a break. Currently I am huffing and puffing 5 minutes in. I usually make it about 10 minutes before I have to grab a sip of water or stand for a minute and take some deep breaths. So I want to eventually make it the entire video without MAXING OUT as they call it in Shaun T land :). Stacey’s goal is to make it the entire video without having to modify. I think that is an amazing goal! I wont get there myself with my arthritis (jumping hurts like a B*TCH) but she will definitely be able to accomplish this goal.


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SWEATY SEFLIE! Gave 110% during T25 Speed 1.0 Friday night.
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Sweaty Selfie! Literally dripping sweat from working it hard on T25 Speed 1.0 Friday night.

This past weekend I hadn’t felt myself and it was really starting to put a damper on things. I had a bad migraine (possibly due to no caffeine or the fact that my period may want to rear its ugly head) and a horrible stomach ache. So I had no motivation. The motivation that I did have, was spent on housework and meal prep for the week. I really didn’t feel like working out Sunday but I knew that I needed to. I suppose doing a half assed workout is better than sitting on said ass doing nothing right?

We did end up doing Speed 1.0 Sunday night after all. I know that I didn’t put my all into it like I have been but I think that’s OK. I still pushed play right? I worked out anyways. Sometimes that is all we can ask of ourselves.

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T25 Speed 1.0. Worked on our speed and stability Sunday night.

The Goals For My Future

I was asked a few simple questions today. A few simple questions that have made me realize that I have been lying to myself for a really long time. I was asked: What made you decide to loose weight now? Whats different from the last time you tried to loose weight? What are your goals and when do you think you will achieve them?

2 years ago, I got it into my head that I was going to loose 100 pounds in a year. Easy enough right? I was working out, mainly speed walking at the gym, when I started getting horrible pain in my feet. I later found out that I have arthritis, in my feet and knee, at the ripe old age of 25 (at the time). I also got a really horrible tissue infection in my right leg that left me down for the count for about 6 weeks. These were all really good excuses as to why I quit.

In all reality, I was scared shit-less. Scared of the pain in my feet and scared of infection returning to my leg. I never told anyone that until a few months ago. I think actually telling someone my fear is what really helped me decide that it was time to try again. Hearing myself say out loud “I am afraid” brought me to reality.

So I begin again.

My weight loss Journey.

Why now?

I am sick and tired of being fat! Being a BBW is fine, and I do love myself. I am beautiful, intelligent, strong willed and I have a killer personality but being fat sucks! I cannot do everything that I want to do in life, while I am in this body.

How long will it take?

This time around I put no time limit on my journey. It will take as long as I need it to take. Maybe three years, maybe it will never be over, and that’s OK.

My Goals?

I believe my goals will be ever changing. That is why my journey may never be over. But for now my goals are as follows:

1) Lead a healthy lifestyle.

This includes eating healthier (not any specific diet, I am still going to live my life, but just healthier choices), and getting active. This will help me, and hopefully set a better example for my daughter.

2) Loose 20 pounds.

This is my first actual weight loss goal. Once I reach it I will up the anti but for now…I am half way there!

3) Be under 200 pounds.

My goal weight is 150 pounds but I am not focusing on that just yet. Getting under 200 pounds will be a huge accomplishment as I have not been that weight since I was about 17 years old.

4) Be able to shop in ANY store I want.

This is actually a huge one for me. I have been shopping in plus size stores since I was 17, and paying the plus size price tag as well. I love that there are stores targeted specifically to plus size woman. There are even stores targeted to YOUNG plus size woman. But you know what? Im sick of being confined to a few stores that I can buy clothing at.

I am a young 20 something. I want to be able to walk into any store, try something on, and have it fit! I want to be able to be on trend and be able to go shopping where all of my girlfriends shop instead of dragging them to Addition-elle or Maurice or Penningtons for myself. I want to be able to buy what I want, from wherever I want.

5) Stop saying no to active play with my daughter.

I do this. I know every parent doeswpid-20150226_174802.jpg it at some point or another but I do it so often that my daughter no longer wants to do anything active, even if I suggest it. I feel like a failure in this aspect but that is going to change. We will get outside and do things together and I will no longer say no, or take no for an answer.

Why is this time different than the last?

I am sick of making up excuses as to why I ‘cant’ excersize. I am an able bodied person. It might take me double the time to do the same workout as someone half my size, I may have to modifty every single move for my arthritis and just because I am not up to that specific skill set or speed yet, but thats OK! Thats OK because Im not going to sit on my ass and watch my life go by anymore. I am going to get up and live it.

My Motivation

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